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Today must be really hard.


I keep thinking about Nev and what it was like for him. I think he'd thought it all through beforehand. I mean, he's known this could happen for so long. He knew what he'd want to do, and, Evs, the thing is, he did it just the way he'd decided. At least I think so. When I heard, that's what I thought: it was just like him to do that.

I know what I hope I'd do. And I hope I stick to it, if it ever comes to it, y'know?

He's pretty much the bravest person I know. And the funny thing is, I'm not really surprised about that. It's just how he was is.

I really hate to think he's


Evyls, I'm really sorry

If you need anything, ask, yeah? I mean, seriously, I'll do anything.

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Sometimes it hits me right in the stomach, and it's like I can't breathe and everything hurts, and then other times, I'll be talking with someone and we'll laugh, or I'll start worrying about something silly like the fact I'll never be able to take my OWLs, and feel just awful about it immediately after.

It didn't really feel like Christmas.

Does it get better?

He's still out there, Ron. He isn't dead. He's alive, and hurting, and alone, and he might be scared if he can still feel anything, and I overheard mum talking and she's terrified that they'll do all these awful things to him while he's helpless. Use him to get to us.

We can't forget about him.

Not ever. Not until he's back home where he belongs, or we know he's dead for sure.

And we can't stop trying to get him back.

He deserves that.

I guess that what I need most right now is to know that you're not going to forget he's out there either.

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Of course, I won't. Not ever.

I don't know if it gets better, Ev. I mean, it does, but I still get a twinge if I think of Dad certain ways--remember something embarrassingly daft he did once, or remember a time I was hacked off at him, or remember something he did for me that was really great, or, y'know, just think of him and not remember he's gone until a second later. That still happens.

I wish I could tell you it's not so hard.

The thing that's hardest is all the things that make you me feel guilty for not living up to what he'd've hoped.

Yeah.

I'm glad you're not coming back to school, though, because that would be so hard. It's going to be awful. And at least you don't have to go through what they'd all have thrown at you. I don't know if it's wrong to say that. Sorry if I shouldn't have said.

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I know what you mean. Just walking down the hall would've been

I'll think every now and then about what it'll be like for Artie and just

And your room. Oh, Ron.

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You've been utterly amazing, you know.

It takes incredible skill to go as far as you have with MLE, and the entire time, you've been hiding who you really are right under their noses, which takes even more.

You could've just said that you'd just work in your brothers' shop, or tried out for Quidditch, but you did something incredible instead. Something only you could've done.