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[alt_ron]

Sorry.

That I was y'know- earlier. I didn't mean to-

I didn't mean you ought to go away.


You with Madam P?

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[alt_sally_anne]

Yeah, I'm down in the Hospital Wing learning about house-elf ear fungus.

[alt_ron]

Oh. Well.

That sounds sexy.

And by sexy, I mean completely revolting.

[alt_sally_anne]

House elves close up are ... well, I've definitely seen more attractive creatures, I'll say that.

[alt_sally_anne]

I'll be back up when I'm done here.

Did you need something?

[alt_ron]

Besides seeing you?

I suppose not.


Only, it would be nice to see you.


I mean, think what sort of dreams you could end up having about elf ears...

Or, actually, don't think about that.

Just come to bed?

[alt_sally_anne]

Well, it's almost midnight, I don't think Madam P will think I'm a slacker if I knock off for the night and come to bed.

It would be nice to see you, too. I wish

[alt_sally_anne]

Elf ears wouldn't be so bad. A week's worth of elf-ear dreams. I wonder if there's a potion for that.

[alt_ron]

You could ask Pansy to see if she could make you one?

I mean, you sort of know what the main ingredient would have to be, don't you? Could you make yourself swallow it?

Actually, don't answer that.

[alt_sally_anne]

Okay, the sad thing:

Yes. Totally. If it would actually get me to dream about something as basically innocuous as elf ears.

[alt_sally_anne]

How have you been sleeping?

I mean, when I'm not waking you up, anyway.

[alt_ron]

Eh. Sleep's over-rated.

[alt_ron]

I mean, I mostly can't, and I seem to get along alright during the day.

Just my usual cheery self, innit?

[alt_sally_anne]

Yeah. More or

I've been thinking that I could pick one night a week and just always use Dreamless Sleep potion that night. Maybe I could catch up on my sleep and not be so tired all the time.

[alt_ron]

What does Madam P say about that?

I mean, I don't really want to block them out, I reckon. I know that doesn't sound like sense, but it's just

[alt_sally_anne]

Madam P thinks it's better to just have the nightmares until you stop having them. She said if I talked about them with someone it might help but the problem is, everyone's having nightmares and I don't want to be the whinger, plus anyway the advantage of being awake is that I'm not thinking about them.

Do you dream about Harry? And what you saw at Eton?

Or what you didn't see at Hogwarts?

Some of my nightmares are so odd. Like last night I dreamed that our time ran out but instead of lining us up and using the killing curse Desai decided to set us all on fire.

Dreamless Sleep, you can't take it more than two nights in a row, or three nights in seven, or six nights in thirty. So once a week would be fine. That's only four nights in twenty-eight.

[alt_ron]

Yeah.

About Eton. About you. About Pansy. About Gin. Who's me, except she's not.

Sometimes I dream about Desai, too. And what's odd is that she's always-

I miss her. I know I shouldn't. I mean, I know it's just because she always treated me like I have a brain and a good wand, and I should know that was just trying to draw me over to their side. And I know it's pathetic that I liked it so much. Having someone treat me like I'm actually good at the things I do.

Last night I dreamed she was debriefing me on my work, not Brodie.

[alt_sally_anne]

Well, that's not entirely surprising. 'Go kill this list of people' is the sort of assignment Desai would've given you.

Anyway

Yeah, I know what you mean. About missing people you shouldn't.

I was down the corridor with the Dark Arts office earlier in the week, you know where Dolohov's office was before he was Headmaster, and I had this urge to stop in for a cup of tea and a chat, even though obviously I knew he wouldn't be in there. And stopping in to chat with him would be a profoundly bad idea, wherever he is.

[alt_ron]

Yeah, well. He liked you.

I wonder if you did stop in that office, if you'd find that letter of recommendation in his files.


Anywiz.

Sometimes it's hard to tell the difference between them and us. That's not whingeing. Or shirking. It's just-

I don't feel as if now Desai's gone, anything's all that different.


And I know it'll be over someday, one way or the other, and I want us to win it, so I don't mind. Only-


I made a ghost the other day.

[alt_sally_anne]

One of the Enforcers?

[alt_ron]

Porphyrius Quick.

He was really enormously hacked off that I'd killed him. He'd been running at me when I got the curse in under his protection. And he just kept coming at me. Went straight through and came again at my back. I kept having to turn around so I could face him down, y'know?


His face was

[alt_ron]

It's the faces.

[alt_sally_anne]

What are you going to do if he shows up

He couldn't actually hurt you

I'm coming upstairs, see you soon, okay?

[alt_ron]

I'll be awake when you get here.

[alt_sally_anne]

How are you feeling today?

It's really nice outside. I keep looking out the window and wondering if I'll have enough time at lunch to get out into the sun.