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alt_ronHey.
I've been thinking about what I told you about my dad.
And about what Mr Black said. I read it again. And y'know, I don't know what to think now, exactly. Y'know, about my dad. Because, yeah. I think he does what Mr Black says, y'know? Justifying stuff he does. For his job. He does all that stuff to keep the camps in control because he thinks- no, really, he knows that the other people who work there, especially the people who work above him, but y'know, some of the others who want to move up higher, they'd do worse things if he weren't there. If they did his job, they'd be loads meaner than he is. But see, he can't stop what the rest of them do. And sometimes he even has to do things that make him sick. I mean, sometimes you can just tell when he comes home that he's sick about what he's had to do. Or if you can't tell from him, you can tell by the way mum acts and what she says to him.
So, yeah. Does that mean Mr Black would think my dad is horrible because he does what he does? Because, it's just like what he says about people in the middle: they do it because they're afraid their kids will get hurt or they'll get arrested and their families will get reclassified or worse.
I've been thinking about what I told you about my dad.
And about what Mr Black said. I read it again. And y'know, I don't know what to think now, exactly. Y'know, about my dad. Because, yeah. I think he does what Mr Black says, y'know? Justifying stuff he does. For his job. He does all that stuff to keep the camps in control because he thinks- no, really, he knows that the other people who work there, especially the people who work above him, but y'know, some of the others who want to move up higher, they'd do worse things if he weren't there. If they did his job, they'd be loads meaner than he is. But see, he can't stop what the rest of them do. And sometimes he even has to do things that make him sick. I mean, sometimes you can just tell when he comes home that he's sick about what he's had to do. Or if you can't tell from him, you can tell by the way mum acts and what she says to him.
So, yeah. Does that mean Mr Black would think my dad is horrible because he does what he does? Because, it's just like what he says about people in the middle: they do it because they're afraid their kids will get hurt or they'll get arrested and their families will get reclassified or worse.
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Date: 2012-01-05 06:27 am (UTC)I think he likes being hard to understand. Because it makes him more mysterious or something.