Ron Weasley

Ugh.

Acton made a total meal of it during our lesson today, going through all the Apparent Characteristics of the Curse I was under ('Or was it the journal itself?')--she wrote it all up on the blackboard. Blerg! I was so hacked off I could have curled those long, pointy nails of hers just by thinking about it, but I didn't.

Really, I didn't do anything. I just sat there. And I even answered her questions when she was horrible and made me answer. Mostly because she was trying to make out it might have been a spell that I cast that went wrong because of my wand, and I didn't want to prove she's right that I'm sometimes doing stuff I don't really try to do (when I get frustrated, y'know or angry, like that time in Carrow's lesson).

But everyone knows I didn't curse my journal yesterday. For one thing, I only do stuff accidentally that I kind of want to see happen (like roast Carrow alive). It's never stuff I don't wish would happen. Like me having to chat up the Malfoys and Mrs Lestrange!

Er. Except when stuff rebounds, I guess.

And she's totally right. Mrs Lestrange, I mean. I have to get Padma back for this. Right away!

I've been thinking all afternoon, but I can't decide. What do you think I should do? What's the best way to really wipe that smug sneer off her ugly face?

I could make her nose look like a pig's. I think I could do that one and make it stick. But, I don't know. I don't think I could do it without anyone knowing.

So, honestly? I don't know what we should do.

We've got Potions this afternoon. With Ravenclaw. And I haven't heard if Professor Slughorn is going to make us move tables or not. Or change partners, or whatever. I sort of don't think he will, but I dunno.

But this morning in Transfiguration, I thought Carrow was going to hex us for sitting where we usually sit well, where I usually sit in the back. He said we knew before we came in where we were supposed to sit, and we got another detention for not wanting to just let them tell half our class they aren't good enough to sit with the rest of us.

I mean, I'm trying to let Seamus think it's more about me not liking to sit up front like a girl, 'cause he's really

he agrees with

that some people are better

only, of course, he thinks he's in the better group, but even with the Carrows, who're making him sit in the back, he doesn't want us--Nev and me--standing up for him. He's really

I dunno

And Dean just shrugs and won't talk about it, but he's really hacked off, you can tell. And also scared expecting, I dunno, but he knows it's not going to stop with making him sit away from the rest of us. He's seen what happens, and I think he's getting ready for that. But he won't say anything to us, and I don't know if he thinks we're making it worse for him by showing we don't think this stuff is right. And Bundy. She never says anything to anyone, anyway. She just kind of flinches if you even look at her.

So I don't know what we should do, y'know? And we've got both Charms and Transfiguration again tomorrow.

Yeah, totally. I Solemnly Swear I Am Up to No Good.

So is it okay to use a contraction there? I'm up to no good? Or does it have to be spelled out? And does it have to be capitalised like that?

Okay, so I'm supposed to tell something on myself that would get me in trouble if anybody found out, right? Well, yeah, I've got something. In Carrow's class that day, when he'd put the Imperius curse on Dean and Hermione, and he was planning to get them sent away? After he blew up in flames, a bunch of people started shooting water out of their wands like they were trying to put it out, only they were really just trying to keep Carrow from realising who'd done what and to keep him off balance so he wouldn't start hexing people.

I didn't cast a water spell. I cast a spell that made some kind of burning oily stuff spray all over Carrow, and it made the flames flare up and go scary hot. I don't think it was even a proper spell, exactly; I think I just wanted to see Carrow burn for what he'd done, and my wand just did what I was thinking. You know what my wand's like now: that's the only time all year my wand's done anything I wanted it to.

And I totally meant to hurt him. I did.

So there. If I do something stupid to get us all in trouble, you can turn me in for trying to murder a teacher.